...and with that, I am exaggerating (do not be impressed, hehe)
This word was just invented by a friend in the midst of reminiscing our "The Knight" publication days - trying to recall names, events and places. She reads my blog regularly and expresses her amazement at how good "daw" I am in remembering and in describing memories in details.
whoa...that is cute, an adjective derived from my name...(I'm kilig-to-the-bones!!!)
It's holiday....and it's Rara's Timezone day.
It's always fun, just like the times spent with my friends...
- I love Filipino poetry...blank verse (not those traditional piece with rhyming sounds)....gusto ko yong parang sinulat lang at the spur-of-the-moment, cleverly written, na medyo puzzling, a piece which is short and precise, but still conveys a whole lot of meaning...
- Ok, fan ako ng Color It Red (stuck in the 90's kasi ako)
- Maganda yong song, really (lyrics & melody)
- Listening to it, I remember those days when I spent a huge amount of time singing and playing the guitar (I can only play yong mga songs na me effort akong pag-aralan) and recording the songs that I truly cherish.
- I admire women who have no qualms expressing themselves - what thay truly feel, what they really want, what their heart desires, and even what they dislike intensely - in a way, I am like that most of the times.
I have a trivial confession to make....
Admittedly (dyahe), nowadays, I don't do house chores. I really am, most of the times, simply doing other things. Of course, I know how to do it - cooking, cleaning the house, doing the laundry- but I simply don't have the chance to do it because someone else is doing it better and more efficient than me (nagpalusot pa haha...)
BUT today, my OC alter ego emerged again (it would always strike unexpectedly, mind you).
This normally happens when I feel down and I want to shift my melancholic spirit into something that would keep my mind and my body busy and moving.
So what happened next is.....I did a general room cleaning of some sorts. When this mood strikes, the whole house would be smiling as I free it from all dirt and clutter. The cleaning would start in the morning and practically end late in the afternoon, even early evening (you heard it right, minsan nao-obsess ako sa paglilinis at pag aayos ng gamit kaya ganito katagal, as in major production haha). This thing is ZEN to me (pansin nyo, after a long day of being "obsessed" I still managed to write this post! That's how I am and my mind as an artist, LOL)
This would be my ritual: While cleaning, I would sort the clutter - books, magazines, old photos, old letters, receipts, pertinent docs - and I would look at it, read it, while memories by association to these things (especially with photos and letters) are revived. I would reread magazines, old letters and smile as I recall my sentiments. I would arrange my huge collection of magazines and sort it by month edition, arrange the CDs alphabetically (by artists), sort all receipts and bills by month of issuance. I would clean the closet and arrange the pile of clothes and sort it by color. Funny thing is, I would end up not throwing away the mess because I would judge it as still valuable and with meaning (trivia 1: I keep old letters, receipts, even my exam papers, greeting cards, postcards, my compilation of work payslips starting from my 1st job. I keep it in a safe place which would be part of my cleaning , when , as I've mentioned, OC mood strikes).
While cleaning, I would find old newspapers and read it again. Yup, you read it right...I do keep old newspaper, clippings of interesting articles which I would love to reread over and over again (trivia 2: When I buy newspaper in the morning, I'll flip through the pages and read only some selected articles, THEN AT NIGHT, I would read it again, this time all pages including the comic strip). That's how OC I am with reading....nobody can and shall disturb me when I'm reading. But nowadays, I do online news reading religiously kasi ang mahal na din kaya ng dyaryo, although the hard copy still has the crisp charm which lure me into serious reading (trivia 3: I used to enjoy the newspaper TODAY published by Teddy Boy Locsin. I dunno, pero I really like the look of that paper, the quality of pages and prints and the layout. When I'm done reading it, I like it being folded coz it's light and non-bulky compared to other papers, so I can easily slip it in my college planner binder. I remember being excited buying this paper and enjoy the articles of good writers like Locsin and Jessica Zafra).
As for the mess, I've found some, but being a sucker I am for vintage (haha) and ME being sentimental, I decided to keep these:
the "unprejudiced" me, LOL
my previous writings
Whoa! sweet notes from '94 (this one came fom my friend Bing. We used to exchange small little notes and hope not to burn bridges)
I unfriendstered someone….
Petty but hey, seriously, I didn’t mean to do it at first, it’s just that I believe that he’s a potential person on the inside who may blurt out or give “someone” an idea about my public yet “for-friends-only” whereabouts. And that “someone” is the only person in my can’t-bear list (and I still call it a list, huh!). So before he can read my PMs, see my photos, and trail my latest blog posts, I searched for him on my list and I politely (haha is there such a thing as this) hit the delete box.
Too bad, coz… yeah in a way, he’s a friend also by association.
And for that, I thank friendster for still not coming up with the “you’ve been removed from XXX’s friend’s list” notification (LOL). I hope his profile is active so that he won’t notice that instead of add up, one “friend” disappeared… undetected
Hey, I’m beginning to sound serious about this whole friendster thing. I’ve been surfing the net aimlessly and I always end up logging in to my account. God I’m sick of it…I’m too old and busy for this…I want a self-impose internet ban (haha drama).
On the other side of the coin…
Someone unfriendstered me….
Not only that - she chose to make the profile, then upon learning that it was soon being discovered ….she decided to delete it and make the impression that she’s really not into it (but probably restored it later on)…because for all we know, she might be really interested to be connected with all others except ME – and that probably she wanted to convey the “I-don’t-want-you-to-give-me-a-sweet-testimonial “ message to me.....
Yeah right, it's Friendster and it should not mean anything right? But i honestly feel that it's her discreet way of telling me that she doesn't want to be friends wih me, or even if she wanted to, she would rather have me out of her cyber life and connection, than....what? I can't think of any kind reason for now
